Reflecting upon my trip the last couple of days, getting over the tiredness, it was a very successful experiment.
Apart from one panic attack I had a great time. Mind you, it took planning. I had to make sure I wasn't put in a position where I'd be rushed, a sure fire way of getting myself into a state. I familiarized myself with the transport options, maps etc.
I went expecting to have to look over my shoulder all the time, thought I might get mugged or stabbed! Fear of the unknown was all it was.
Apart from the hour or so I sat at St. Mary's, I didn't feel unsafe at any time, then again, I didn't leave the hotel at night.
I very quickly adapted back into everyday family drudgery, which had my mind fantasizing about running away from home again! I love my family, don't get me wrong, but I can't shake the running away feeling. It's almost as if there's something I NEED to do, to fulfill my life. The problem is I am not at all sure of what it is I'm missing, or looking for!!!!!!!!
A downside to my adventure now is that now that I'm home, my introverted personality has come to the fore and I'm needing my solitude, mixed in with a little bit of the Black Dog, it's going to be a long, bumpy road this time.
It's usually only a small, annoying yapping puppy, this time feels like a huge barking bulldog :( but I'll be back to 'normal' soon, I always get there eventually.
Just over 2 weeks until my next trip, this time I won't be alone though so it will be a completely different experience again, a 'studying holiday' if you will.
I will probably still methodically plan every hour haha, but it has the comfort of being a lot closer to home. Not much social time, but I will have to check out my brothers' band, Agent 77, while I'm down there ;) and many, many coffee trips <3 till next time...;)
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