Maiden Journey

I was diagnosed with Anxiety Disorders: Social anxiety, severe social phobia, generalized anxiety disorder, and OCD thrown in for somebody's' amusement, approximately 2 years ago. I can pinpoint the circumstances which brought it on too, the worry about my teenage daughters' stress and angst and the fact she was self-harming.
Many hours of visits to medical professionals, mental health hospital appointments and many different drug regimes later, here I am.
Recently, I was convinced I had "cured" my anxiety. WRONG! All I'd done in fact as learn how to recognize the physical manifestations of anxiety and differentiate them from the body's' natural reactions to fight/flight, fear, sickness.
So, in some strange magnetic pull to "find myself" I've been planning some travel.
Alone.
In cities I've never visited.

Alone!

What was I thinking exactly??? Mid-life crisis? No travel prior to having kids?
I don't know.
All I DO know is now it''s too late to back out...I purposely booked non-refundable accommodation, pre-purchased train tickets etc.

In just a few days I leave for Sydney...Am I scared? Yes. Excited? Also, yes.
I already feel nauseous and flighty, but I'm not going to let it beat me, affect my time away. I'm doing this not only to prove something to myself, but maybe help others understand that you don't have to let anxiety disorders stop you from living.

As much as my bed can be my little oasis from the world, the world isn't going to come to see me, I have to get out there and explore it, find out it's not so scary after all :)

For more information, visit : http://www.sane.org/information/factsheets-podcasts/158-anxiety-disorders